A: You know what's my biggest weakness? I just can't stand being criticized.
B: Its worse if you start ignoring criticism... Par hua kya? Someone said something?
B: Ab bataa bhi!
A: Aise hi, I just realized this after coming over here... I know I may not be right all the time... but this is me. I know that am still immature. I need to learn a lot. Why do people always expect you to be perfect? I have my own opinion about things... which may be different from others... Why can't people understand this? And I just hate being rejected. I do not want them to be or think like me... But they can at least let me be me. I miss my home a lot for this.
B: A! This place does make you think differently. Your message... it seemed as if I was reading my diary! There are too many different types of people in this world. Its sometimes nice meeting them. But at the end of the day if you can be YOURSELF and not anyone else... that would be the biggest achievement.
A: Yeah... That's the whole problem... I hate being criticized... and get hurt real badly when someone does so... To avoid that I can either change my own views or pretend to do so or say nothing at all... People here know just a part of me... There's a lot more that they don't know... They consider me all goody goody types... That bubbly, jumpy, sometimes lost individual... I am lucky to have those people in my life... Coz I know they love me and will be there for me... But there are times when I feel real lonely... Coz I know they love only a part of me... I mean... I don't no.
B: I still think I am pretty immature. But I am often happy that I can think simply... that I can find pleasure in trivial things. I have still a lot to learn... and this place has ways to make you do that. I know a lot of people here but I still feel lonely sometimes...
A: You know what, there's only one person in this world who knows all about me... Bhale hi not 100% but at least 90%... And still loves me. And that's my sis. I really miss her a lot.
B: :) Human behaviour is too complicated for humans to understand! There was a time when I used to judge everyone and form opinions. I changed when I realized I had understood my best friend wrongly. Try to live without judging people. Try not to be mature. Just try to be yourself. That is all... And yes people DO NOT deserve your explanations.
A: Yeah... In the end its only you...Yourself... On your own... Its your life... And you need to decide what you gotta do with it... How you want it to be like... What do you think will you remember or rather would like to remember after 50 years or so... Its all fun and masti here... The small things that you'd always remember... But you also need to have some people to hold on to... Anyway leave it... Sometimes I get real philosophical.
B: Sorry I was pretty tired last night... must have slept off! Just one thing to add. Life has its own way of dealing with things... and you never know when something that seemed small, might become big enough to be a companion for life... One more thing... you are a wonderful person but do not expect everyone to understand you. And yes PLEASE be open to outside opinion... let it at least sink into your head. Don't make the mistake of locking yourself up!
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